Late Night Epiphany and Rants

So tonight i've been hit by a huge wave of enlightenment / inspiration. I was just casually listening to U2 and my imagination started going wild. I've been trying to perfect the way i'm drawing human figures and faces, for a little while now. And I know practice is what makes perfect in this scenario. But I feel like i keep hitting a huge brick wall recently, theres something visually missing or wrong and I can't put my finger on it. Maybe it's just a lack of substance so far, since most of them have been personal meanings.

Another thing that i've strangely come to just this very moment realise is that i need to stop comparing myself to other people. It came in to my mind for a sec and it seemed like one of those statements that people just say but because it's so over used nowadays it just doesn't sink in, but it kind of came back and hit me about how serious and how much that is holding me back. I know most people probably won't care, but writing this down really helps me organise my head. Anyway, I realise that no matter how much I adore Ellie Willis' style of drawing, even though it is amazing, that's not my style, and even though it may not be as realistic, or so intricate, mine is the same but on a different side of the spectrum. It just knocked me off my chair like how much it's making me feel negative towards my own creations.

And I know it's off topic but i need to stop comparing myself to people, period. It hit me so hard that THAT is my biggest problem and ridiculously terrible habit. I know it sounds stupid how someone can just suddenly realise (when it should be extremely obvious) but when you're mind is kind of full, it doesn't focus on one specific thing and I think tonight i hit a point where i really had a strong sense of self focus. I know i knew it all along but it really came into focus tonight.

It's not much, cause I don't feel like sharing some of them, but here you go :)

A Question to my Blog Viewers

So I've noticed that every time i post on my blog I appear to get quite a few views, and out of curiosity I would like to know more about you! I'm going to set up a new poll to the left side of my blog so you can tell me a little more about how you found me, and why you decided to step on to a very remote blog on the internet, with many more blogs like it all over. A comment in the comments section of this post would also be amazing, but I do realize it's a bit of a bore having to set up an account (if you don't have one) just to reply to a blog post, but still, if you can, it would be awesome. 

So it's a thanks, I suppose! For finding your way here and boosting my confidence :)

Goodbye England, hello Bulgaria!

So this will have to be a quick post, but I'm working on some cool art whilst here in Bulgaria! Check back in September for some real good sketchbook drawings! Here's a quick sneak peak at some of the kind of things I'm doing...

Emotional Update

Doesn't it look good all set out neat? I love it. I'm proud of myself for creating this work & for coming so far in the 3 years i've been here. I'm really going to miss my times here and all the lovely people. A big thank you to my tutors Gary, Ian, Jo & also Rick for helping me out with lots of last minute things and guiding me for the years i've been here. Thank you to my classmates for being really awesome people & amazing illustrators, you made my time here really enjoyable! Thank you to Kieran for helping me with screen printing & teaching me loads of new ways to have fun with my work. Thank you also to Jane with my critical work in the previous years too! And a big thank you to everyone else!

Creation Animation!

TODAY! I finally made my animation. I wish i would have started earlier, it could have been better, but with everything that went wrong it was hard! Anyway, the whole story of my animation is that there is this person (which is you!) and you are a beautiful unique individual, and you are so powerful and confident that the wildlife around you creeps up to you and blossoms when it reaches your body, because you are beautiful. Take a look! :)  

The video is showing you how you could be if you believed in yourself, it's part of the campaign.

Unfortunately I couldn't get the animation on here right now, so some screenshots will   to do until i figure out whats going wrong!

The sound track I have chosen is the beginning of Karsk Kale's 'Milan'. It is serene and eastern, perfect for creating the perfect atmosphere for my animation.

Karsh Kale - Liberation